yesterday's road trip was just the worst ... I cried... I begged... I got tired of trying to explain.... he found it useless too... we were just at the point that we won't understand any body but our self. It was pretty much a useless argument getting to nowhere so we just sat there quietly, wishing that we were home. But we were far from any home we can be.
I felt that I shouldn't have came to the U.S. in the first place. Everything about us was just ruined. But a part of me was grateful that at the least we experience these things now and not later. In sum, my trip to the states with him was just not as I expected it to be. It was just a total .... dare I say it. A TOTAL DISASTER.
Anyway, yesterday... from Vegas to L.A. our road trip wasn't that totally bad. Maybe because we had no choice since we were stuck with each other for 4 hours. We made up and we were okay again on the road.
I was using his cell phone though, using yahoo messenger. When SUDDENLY HELLO. Someone Messaged him. Somebody I told a year ago to BACK OFF. His ex girlfriend whom coincidentally I accused him a week ago that they have been talking to each other and which he denied of ever talking.
I told him "I ASKED YOU LAST WEEK! when was the last time you two were talking!"
He said "I told you, last month"...
I GAVE A HUGE GASP and said "liar!!!!!" "You said to me you haven't been talking to her!!
In any case.. you might think we were fighting again... but I had to control myself before we break up again anytime soon (see, can't you notice I'm improving) ... I wanted to bitch out the girl but then I just tried to act cool and "nicely" told her to stop talking to my boyfriend. But I sooo wanted to tell her "Didn't I tell you to back off??"
Other than that.... the remaining road trip back to Los Angeles was still not a perfect one because my boyfriend was showing signs of physical weakness already. He was heating up, even if we weren't fighting nor were we in Vegas. So with a couple of stop overs, I bought him medicine, water and food. This time I was smart enough to use my credit card. I think this could fall under an "emergency".
And the rest of the night... was all cool...